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[chimeranomore]

... Why am I letting it get to me so much? It's not as if she's ever acted like she likes me, or does much more than tolerate me.

I guess it's just because I've never really been hated before. Just feared, and I know she's got no reason to do that. Not like I'm fireproof anymore, and if I was that dangerous to her worldview I'd probably have convinced her by now.

Still, it... hurts. It almost physically hurts...

Comments

[unluckychimera.livejournal.com]

Not until you answer the question!

[unluckychimera.livejournal.com]

You might remember I decided I was a monster once, too.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

No! It's unimportant and I have better things to think about!

[unluckychimera.livejournal.com]

Nothing you need to concern yourself with.

[howdarktheblood.livejournal.com]

Yeah.

[unluckychimera.livejournal.com]

Then why are you bothering in the first place?

[a-wolfen-heart.livejournal.com]

No, really. I'm honestly curious. You never know, I could have advice that's actually helpful.

[unluckychimera.livejournal.com]

You know, I might be more inclined to listen to that if someone would actually explain how.

[unluckychimera.livejournal.com]

Given her tendency to dismiss anything she disagrees with, I kind of doubt it.

[a-wolfen-heart.livejournal.com]

Oh yeah? What's she like?

[howdarktheblood.livejournal.com]

You act the same to me as that Azula person! We're nothing alike, what's wrong with you!

[unluckychimera.livejournal.com]

I'm not falling into that trap, thanks. This was just supposed to be me feeling sorry for myself, in fact - I didn't intend anyone else to actually see this.

[unluckychimera.livejournal.com]

You might be surprised

... That's not what self-righteous means.

[lol-mouseketeer.livejournal.com]

Not everyone thought the same. Including me.

[howdarktheblood.livejournal.com]

It is now. I changed it.

[unluckychimera.livejournal.com]

I never said I was right. Or that she was right when she decided it.

Besides, we've... both lost people. The difference being that my case was actually my fault.

[unluckychimera.livejournal.com]

I... don't think language works like that

[a-wolfen-heart.livejournal.com]

Well, regardless, it's out there.

[unluckychimera.livejournal.com]

I just... she's randomly decided to hate me after having been acquaintances for at least over a year.

[howdarktheblood.livejournal.com]

It does now.

[a-wolfen-heart.livejournal.com]

It's never "random". You just don't know the real reason.

[lol-mouseketeer.livejournal.com]

That's still no excuse for her.

[unluckychimera.livejournal.com]

... I'm not sure if you're trying to annoy me or cheer me up.

[unluckychimera.livejournal.com]

That was kind of my point, yes.

[unluckychimera.livejournal.com]

I just... don't know what to do, all right? People aren't my strong point.