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[chimeranomore]

... Why am I letting it get to me so much? It's not as if she's ever acted like she likes me, or does much more than tolerate me.

I guess it's just because I've never really been hated before. Just feared, and I know she's got no reason to do that. Not like I'm fireproof anymore, and if I was that dangerous to her worldview I'd probably have convinced her by now.

Still, it... hurts. It almost physically hurts...

Comments

[unluckychimera.livejournal.com]

No, she doesn't, actually. She says everyone who disagrees with her is stupid, but she claims not to care enough about most people to hate them.

[lol-mouseketeer.livejournal.com]

Seems like a good reason to just ignore her.

[unluckychimera.livejournal.com]

... She reminds me too much of myself, okay?

[lol-mouseketeer.livejournal.com]

...Oh.

[unluckychimera.livejournal.com]

You might remember I decided I was a monster once, too.

[lol-mouseketeer.livejournal.com]

Not everyone thought the same. Including me.

[unluckychimera.livejournal.com]

I never said I was right. Or that she was right when she decided it.

Besides, we've... both lost people. The difference being that my case was actually my fault.

[lol-mouseketeer.livejournal.com]

That's still no excuse for her.

[unluckychimera.livejournal.com]

I just... don't know what to do, all right? People aren't my strong point.

[lol-mouseketeer.livejournal.com]

Like I said, don't worry about it too much.

[unluckychimera.livejournal.com]

[sigh]

I guess you're right...